I’m 7 days into a massive gallstone attack. I’ve been diagnosed and waitlisted for surgery twice now (Canada) but healthcare is falling apart here. I can’t wait any longer. Yesterday I told the doctors if they won’t do anything I will publicly commit suicide in a very loud and publicized way. I can’t take this shit anymore. Its a 30 minute surgery and ive been having major problems since May. Our country is falling apart but the grocery stores and telcos are making more than ever so we’re all good right…right?

It sucks. I’m reviewing for a board exam, but I can’t for the life of me focus for an entire day. I can only study in the mornings, and anytime after that I get so sleepy and easily distracted. It’s been like this for weeks now, so much that I’m way behind on the study schedule.

I tried journalling, exercising, and listening to ambient noise to improve focus and energy to no avail. Ugh, the exam date is still far ahead but I feel like I’ll surely fail.

got an interview this afternoon past the recruiter phase. wish me luck.

Been in a kind of rut to be honest. I love Autumn, but the times know how to make you think of certain ongoing social issues with more emphasis.

Pretty mid tbh, failed my driving test which is pretty shit but apparently very common around here. Made a pretty cool python script to monitor test cancellations so I can swoop in and do a new attempt, otherwise I’d have to wait like three months, so silver lining I guess.