Can totally relate to the idea of not wanting to change to make my life seem more interesting to other people. I’m a quiet introvert with social anxiety, and I think a lot of my life I have felt like I had to put on a show in front of others to seem more interesting. Trying to get out of that habit and just accept the awkwardness when it happens. I have lots of hobbies, but people aren’t always interested in the same things and some don’t even see value in ways I like to spend my time. And that’s ok.
Not sure if any of this resonates with your situation, but I hope you have spaces where you feel you can be your genuine self. It’s not always easy.
I want to start making my own fermented pickles. Just started my first batch today! I’m expecting it to go poorly and be a learning experience. Best case scenario, they turn out well and I get pickles!