Theres an adult bookstore near my work. Ive been going thereon my lunchbreak and sucking cock in the vid booths.

I’ve lost a lot of weight recently. I’m down from 128 Kg (280+ pounds) to 100 Kg (220 lbs) on my way to my target of 90 Kg (200 lbs). As I’ve lost weight I’ve regained length. I’m now measuring just over 18 cm (7.1 inches) which has rekindled my interest in autoerotic photography. I’ve posted some pictures to my FetLife profile and shared some with friends. I’ve been writing erotica emails to friends and think it might be time to find someone to play with. It’s the middle of winter here in eastern Ontario and everyone is hibernating. What I really need is a cuddle buddy.

This week has been rough, as I was laid off from my job on Tuesday. I did come into the city later in this week to meet with some other affected colleagues, and tried having some fun while I’m here:

• Friday after lunch in Queens, I found a guy in the neighborhood looking to get sucked off. Thick dick, big balls, and really chub. It was a fun experience! Things got really really sloppy. He likes roleplay, so he was laying down in his bed pretending to be asleep. We chatted for a while afterwards – he’s a super sweet bi guy who’s enjoying exploring his dom side with guys after breaking up with his gf recently :-)
• Friday night I didn’t want to do much, but a potential FWB, S, wanted to come over. This time instead of chatting we moved to the bedroom really quickly. He’s more bottom but had never been rimmed before, and I was happy to oblige. I never had someone sit on my face before, and I really enjoyed it. He was crying tears of joy from the pleasure of the experience. Very fun to kiss and feel each other – we did that for hours. I didn’t want to do anal, so he made me cum with his hand. Sweet guy.
• Saturday I took a train to spend the weekend with J from NJ. I met him at Naked Gaymer Night and we really hit it off there. Kinda twinky blond, yoga body. The plan was to have out own private Naked Gaymer Night :-) We ordered Chinese delivery, had a drink, and smoked a weed vape for a bit.
  • We played Strip Smash Bros, and apparently I’m better than expected, because I got him naked fast. Though I fully undressed too and we had more awesome making out.
  • We never discussed sexual preferences, turns out we’re both mostly tops, but we also had both prepped to bottom :-P he really wanted to bottom for me. We had a lot of fun exploring his ass, focusing on prostate pleasure. I had trouble fitting in, even with poppers he was tight. Eventually I’d get in, but he’d tense up and get so tight it got uncomfortable, and I didn’t want to hurt him.
  • J thinks I have a primal side and I try too hard to be polite. He might be right. Once he gave me permission to be rough and go for it, I fucked him hard and came so so fast he was surprised that I had already bred him! He topped me for a bit, but I think with all the poppers that wasn’t easy for him, either. We spent the rest of the night more chill, with fingers in his ass, and he came that way while jerking off. He really wanted me to top him again that night (and for longer), but I think the pressure he placed, plus all the job stuff I’m dealing with had me not really feeling up to it.
  • Slept together and I loved the feeling of my cock getting hard in his ass crack in the morning. He loved it, too :-)
  • The morning was a repeat of the night before, but this time with him down on the floor, face down, ass up. At times my whole body snugged up against him, using him like a pillow. I loved the way he was moaning, and he even snuck a few "daddy"s in there which I liked.

I had a pretty serious urge to give head out of seemingly nowhere, but it has unfortunately been a bit of a dryspell, so I just choked myself with a dildo in the shower while I got myself off lol.

Girlfriend and I got to play with my new toys! Wrists cuffed together above my head with my nipple clamps biting in wonderfully while my girlfriend took control! She’d do this thing where she’d bring me right up to the edge then pull away and say “Ask nicely!” She ended up making me beg before she’d let me finish, by the end I was a quivering mess! So amazingly hot being in her complete control like that, this is my new favorite thing!